a letter to you

Things that make me miss you….

button-down polos
christmas trees
wearing shorts and long sleeves
riding with the windows down
Tradd and Jackson's birthday
Friday afternoons
seeing the red doors of a lutheran church
when I hear someone has married their high school sweetheart
when I say to my boys, "scat cat your tail's in the gravy"
and a million other things. a million.

Truth is, everybody that loved you has a list all their own.  I've heard it said that missing someone is proof that you loved someone worth missing.

Boy, were you loved….so you must be missed.

I took time to reread when I have written about you over the last two years and in doing so I can see that my heart is healing…it's slow going because the wake you left is hard to stand up in some days.

I read a book that I know you would have loved called One Thousand Gifts.  In my journal I have written time and time again this one line…

take the pain that is given, give thanks for it, and transform it into joy that fulfills all emptiness  

I am giving thanks for the time that we had together on this side of heaven. 


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